Ah..great hope...wonderful!Same message as each post abortive person needs..we are ALL sinners in need of His mercy. We are told our faith shames us but those who truly know the faith know it frees us!
More coverage of yesterdays press conference, 2 with video. It is interesting to note the women for Cuomo keeps bringing up the life of the mother but does not say why it is necessary in those circumstances to kill the baby.
I will be writing more about this later, but for
now I thought I would just send the articles from the press conference we did
yesterday in Albany on the Abortion Expansion Bill at the request of the
Drs Anne Notle, Kyle Beiler, Miram Grossman, Ali
Ko Tsai and myself, at their request, went to Albany to speak against Cuomo's bill.
We had a great turnout from the press, and I thought everyone was totally
awesome, but reading just a few of the articles will tell you how totally biased
Anne of course works at the Gianna center in NYC, Kyle and Ali are og-gyn's and, Miram Grossman is a psychiatrist. Of course, I spoke from the perspective of being
post abortive and serving women who had suffered from abortion. I seem to have
been totally ignored. No surprised. I am coming to recognize our voices are
drowned out in this debate, because we speak the truth from experience and there
is nothing they can to do alter that, so they ignore it.
I will be posting some video etc at some
we did what He asked..it is in His
hands....God's will be done.
I can always remember thinking as a kid that I never would have
betrayed Jesus like Judas had done. I couldn’t understand how he
could have made that choice. It all seemed so obvious.
Now, years later and hopefully wiser, I see that I am not so
different than Judas. We both thought we knew better than Jesus.
Instead of trusting in the love Jesus had for him and believing
Jesus had his best interest at heart, Judas took the situation at
hand on himself. Jesus was not doing things the way Judas thought He
should be and the Scribes and Pharisees were looking for someone to
sell Jesus out. Judas fell right into their hands, betraying Jesus
for 30 pieces of silver.
After the arrest, Judas felt instant remorse. The light went on
and he realized what a grave mistake he had made. He realized he had
sinned, “betraying innocent life.” Judas returned to the Scribes and
Pharisees and gave them back the 30 pieces of silver, but they wanted
no part of him anymore. They had accomplished what they had set out
to do and now told him in his despair, “What do we care about that?
It is your business.”
If Judas had gone to Jesus even then, if he had asked forgiveness
and trusted in His love and mercy, things would have turned out
differently for him. Jesus no doubt would have forgiven him and we
probably would be readingthe book of Judas in the Bible, speaking about the unfathomable mercy and love Jesus had shown him.
But Judas did not do that; his pride and continued lack of trust
held him back. Instead of admitting what he had done and seeking
forgiveness he gave in to despair and went and hanged himself.
When I think of my abortion, I realize I too sold Jesus out. I did
not trust in the love and mercy of God or His divine providence
enough to know He would have taken care of both me and my unborn
child. I decided to give in to pressure, to trust that others knew
better than God. I decided to allow my abortion to happen.
When I was a teenager I was pressured into an abortion by my
dad. Having hidden my pregnancy for over
4 months my baby was fully formed by the time I underwent a 2nd trimester
saline abortion, alone in a hospital room.
With no information about my baby’s development or what I
was going to go through, I spent hours in labor before giving birth to a burnt
dead baby boy lying in the bed next to me. To say it was a life altering
experience is an understatement. My life was taken away with that of my son. I
will always remember looking down at him, seeing his tiny fingers and toes, and
wondering how in the world it was possible to do something like this.
I don’t know why, but I named my son Joshua. It just seemed fitting,
that even though I participated in his death, I should name him. My
relationship with Joshua, however, was anything but peaceful. Just the thought
of him caused me to become overwhelmed with terror. Every reminder condemned me
to hell, and I would have visions of him accusing me before God, pointing his
finger at me as he pointed out who was responsible for his death. Having done
post abortion work for years now, I know that is the experience of countless
women and men. There is a terror that exists at the thought of forming a
relationship with their unborn children.
I am not sure when this changed for me; although I know it
was once I knew the love of God. It made sense that if my child was “living in
the Lord” (The Gospel of Life; John Paul II), he would desire my salvation, and
instead of condemning me would be praying for my conversion.
Little by little I forged a relationship with him through
prayer. It took time to develop and overcome the guilt and shame, but I knew
inside I needed to repair the relationship. I needed to allow myself to love my
son and for him to love me in spite of my human feelings of being unforgivable.
Most importantly, I knew that was God's desire.
In time, I learned to meet Joshua in the Blessed Sacrament
where Jesus united us through His body and blood. Joshua soon became as alive
as my sons here on earth.
Years later, God showed his their guidance in my work.
Having developed a post abortion ministry with The Sisters
of Life, we were praying for a name for it. Before the
Blessed Sacrament one day, I felt Jesus telling me “Entering Canaan” would be
the name. As I went home and read the story of the Israelites journey into Canaan, The Promised Land, I recognized the parallels to
healing from abortion, but most striking was that they reached the Promised
Land in the book of Joshua.
I know Joshua is leading many into Canaan
these days. I know he has an army of aborted babies up in heaven interceding
for their parents healing. We are united in our work and each day I still share
my heart with him and Jesus in my daily communion praying for those who come to
Now, I never remember Joshua as that dead baby lying in the
bed next to me, but as a soul living in the Lord who taught me what true love
A living soul totally united to Christ, interceding for me.
An advocate before the throne. A gift of our faith. Through my worst sin, I
have come to know God and He has shown me His unfathomable mercy. No one can
take that away.
Entering Canaan Entering Canaan is comprehensive post abortion ministry consisting of Day of Prayer & Healing, weekend Retreats and monthly Gatherings. It also includes a yearly "Mercy Renewal Retreat" which enables those involved in the ministry to come aside each year to grow more deeply in their healing and faith.
Lumina Hope & Healing After Abortion A post abortion ministry of Good Counsel, Inc., Lumina provides groups, retreat days, trainings, public speaking, & referrals to post abortion ministries, professional therapists and clergy.
Abortion Recovery International ARIN is an affiliate association, dedicated to connecting and assisting like-minded abortion recovery centers, programs and services; as well as individuals working within the field.
Ramah International Assistance for those hurting from post abortion syndrome through communication, resources, and local referrals.
Project Rachel The Catholic Church's healing ministry for those who have been involved in abortion.
National Office of Reconciliation and Healing A network of researchers and psychotherapeutic professionals working in the field within the U.S. and abroad, consulting on the formation of post-abortion support services within secular and religious settings.
Rachel's Vineyard Rachel's Vineyard retreats combines a unique and creative process for psychological and spiritual healing.
Safe Haven Ministries Safe Haven is a peer site for those who have had abortions to find comfort, hope, understanding, and healing.
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