"There have been times that I wish it had been me and that you could have lived.I have felt like it was my fault; if she had not had me perhaps you would have had a chance. But, I try to focus on eternity."
Dear Small One,God knit you together in our Mother’s womb in a way that was so perfect and so divine. I wish that I would have had a chance to know you, to love you.Would you have been my Sister who I could whisper all of my secrets to?Would you have been my brother, bold and protective?Would you have red hair and freckles like me?I miss all of the fun that we could have had together.I am sure that we could have spent many hours playing make believe and learning to ride bikes together.I am sure that I would have never been quite so afraid during thunderstorms.You would have been younger than me, there are so many things that I could have taught you.Where would we be today, as adults, would we be raising our children together?I pray for you often. I cry sometimes too, when I think of everything that you could have been.What would it have been like to not grow up so utterly alone?I pray that in some small way you were able to exercise your free will to love God.Perhaps you heard our Grandmother speak of his love.I hope that your death was not too painful.I wish I could have protected you from that.There have been times that I wish it had been me and that you could have lived.I have felt like it was my fault; if she had not had me perhaps you would have had a chance. But, I try to focus on eternity.Someday we will frolic together in the glory of heaven, I am sure of it.We will have to make up for lost time.Forgive our Mother, it has taken me some time too.As for me, I will not rest on this Earth until I see an end to this murderous nonsense that stole you away from me before I even got to hold your hand.I love you small one and I will see you soon.Love, Your Big SisterJeremiah 1:4-5 Now the word of the LORD came to me, saying, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”
Next "Entering Canaan Day of Prayer & Healing for Siblings" April 6th, 2016. Sibling weekend dates TBA. Stay tuned to our blog for updated information.