My latest article in Mind & Spirit
Theresa Bonopartis, October 17, 2017
Karen called me because of an abortion she had 30 plus years ago. It was evident that she was suffering greatly and did not believe God could forgive her for such a sin, nor was she able to forgive herself. This was something she accepted, because she felt she deserved a life of suffering.
“There is no healing for this,” she told me. “It is impossible.”
As our conversation progressed, and I tried to speak to her of forgiveness through Christ, it became clear that she had made up her mind that the rest of her days were to be spent torturing herself with no hope of forgiveness. She lived a life of despair.
Karen was caught up in “self” which is so prevalent in the face of serious sin. She was continually focused on what she had done, unable to move forward. She did not want to hear about God’s mercy, because she could not allow herself to accept it. She had even become comfortable in her misery, except for the rare occasion when she would reach out, but be deaf to anything that was said to her that would give her any hope of change.
Not only did Karen refuse to believe in mercy for herself, but she also refused to believe in it for anyone else. “I don’t care what anyone says, no one can heal from an abortion,” she told me. Her determination to suffer for taking the life of her unborn child was cemented in her heart of stone, which was the only way she had been able to survive all these years.