Sensitivity

"I must be on my guard, especially today, because I am becoming over-sensitive to everything. Things I would not pay any attention to when I am healthy bother me today. O my Jesus, my shield and my strength, grant me Your grace that I may emerge victorious from these combats. O my Jesus, transform me into Yourself by the power of Your love, that I may be a worthy tool in proclaiming Your mercy." (Diary 783)

I do not know about the rest of you but I can tell you during my healing I was amazingly sensitive to what people were saying. I was constantly on watch for a word that  would allow me to validate my feelings of condemnation of myself, so every  "abortion is wrong" , or "I cannot believe anyone can have an abortion" sounded by any person, was for me, a leap to hell.

As I became "healthier" due to healing from Christ, I came to realize that those statements can be true without them reflecting on me. I could admit the truth about abortion because I also admitted the truth about Gods love and mercy for me. I also came to understand how we all need Gods mercy, and instead of judging those who I felt had judged me, I could pray for them to understand and to forgive me for making the decision to abort.

God's healing is freeing, and peaceful, and yes, joyful, and no one can take what He has done for me away no matter what they say. I am a sinner in need of His mercy, and I am glad I know that now.